Just because I feel like.and I dont have all that to do..I dont remember the last time I added a new entry or what it was even about..probably about losing weight...............

Im glad my life is not only about losing weight anymore....when I look back, it seems it was te only thing that ever mattered...how sad...

But anyways....I am now in another diet now, and I still purge sometimes and how I look still matters too much.

but My currents problems at the moment are:

-I'm a shopaholic I've spent 1000 pounds in like less than 2 weeks. I didn't even saved to get me through the month, not even for gas.

-just...Him. i'm so tired of talking about my crush...he is just a situation I dont quite get to put right.

-I've been doing shitouusly bad on school. and I'm still expecting a crucial exam result.

-Its gonna be unbearable to spend this first xmas and holidays without mum for the first time.

-its gonna be looong and boring the two weeks break my dad, siblings and I are spendindg together.

I'll do a 800 cal intake for two weeks...and then Ill keep it in 1500cals

I started dieting on saturday, but Im not sure about the intake exactly I did purged.

Todays Intake:

-coffee (2 cups)

-Chips (i know, not exactly a diet item) 220 cal

-Soup im about to eat mm about 150calories

I had some bites of bread ...to get it putta my head. maybe I'll have yogurth later night.

i feel so empty....

purposeless.

he, the guy i've never talked to. gets my blood going.

he the guy i spent a little seven minutes in heaven waste last night. does not.

i drink last night got very wasted, to say the very least.

it was stupid but i wanted to kiss someone, ans so i did more than that actually.

now every one gossip about it. fuck it. i was kissing him with open eyes sometimes waiting for it to finish. i just dont feel anymore